Carrie Ann Barr


I am lost in the darkness between two worlds and here I'm struggling you're the light that I've been seeking 'cause my whole life, there's been something missing only you can make me whole just one touch you complete me rescue me from this black hole that sucked me in and left me dying you're the truth that I've been seeking 'cause my whole life I've been lying only you can make me whole just one touch you complete me God I pray you find me worthy of the right to stand beside you and of your truth and of your passion of the right to sleep beside you only you can make me whole just one touch you complete me only you can make me whole just one touch you complete me
My dearest, beloved Carrie. I love you. I love more than I have ever loved anyone or will love anyone. You are my life. You are my passion. You are my sunrise. You are my starlit sky. You are my tree stretching into the sky. You are my truth. You are my one single reason for being. I am love for you. I always will be.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home agains

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I pure again

However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you


Funny how life turns out, isn't it? I suffer through 16 years of a mostly meaningless life, where I escape the pain besetting me anyway I can. When I think I have nothing left to lose, I lose something most dear. I lost my innocence, once and for all. Then I lost my heart to a no-good girl, and found a pair of incredible friends in the process. I lost the girl, but kept the friends. With the hope that their love gave me, I found my path. It led to you.
Oh, were I a baron's heir
That I could with gems braid your hair
And make ye as rich as ye are fair
Lady would ye love me?

And when we went unto the town
I would buy for thee a satin gown
And give ye jewels of great reknown
Lady would ye love me?

And when the pale moon glimmers o'er
The wee bits of hills and bracken there
Would ye not that are so fair?
Lady would ye love me?

But I have not to offer thee
Not gems from mine nor pearls from sea
Nor come I of high degree
But Lady, I love thee.


I may never have scads of money. I may never have the ability to spend great deals of money frivolously. I may never possess a big house, nor great gems. But I will be the richest man in the world with you by my side. True wealth is not measured in dollars and pounds. It is measured in peace and happiness. You are my happiness. After all, we don't need a big house... just one large enough.
I feel your lips
I taste your skin
I need to know
I need to feel you from within
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel complete
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here forever
So much to give you
So much to show you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you

We are flesh
We are one
So why do I
Feel so much guilt for what I've done
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel release
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here forever
So much to tell you
So much to give you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you


I feel like my body was made for you. Stride for stride, beat for beat. I am not complete. You are not complete. WE are complete. And we're not the type that will EVER have to worry about the physical aspect of our relationship. We merely wish to have the intimacy of our souls throughout our entire existence.
she shines in a world full of ugliness she matters when everthing is meaningless fragile she doesn't see her beauty she tries to get away sometimes it's just that nothing seems worth saving i can't watch her slip away i won't let you fall apart she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by hoping someone can see if i could fix myself i'd - but it's too late for me i won't let you fall apart we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide i'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side ...but they keep waiting ...and picking it's something i have to do i was there too before everything else i was like you

I see all of the few things I consider good about myself shining in you. I see all of your love. I have seen your soul. I have felt its warmth. I feel its warmth now, burning in the center of mine. I love you. You are my life. I need you beyond words. I just hope that this site can do some justice to the infinite beauty of you.
Once upon a time, there was born a wanderer. He was like most children, curious and adventurous. He found his greatest adventures within his own mind, and in the forests surrounding his home. There he would walk, climbing rocks that soared above his head, talking about magical adventures, dreaming about creatures beyond our ken. Then, one day, he grew up.

This boy started seeing the world in ways that weren't so adventurous, that weren't so romantic. He began realizing that no one payed any attention to him, except to use him and abuse him. Then he looked elsewhere. This boy embraced other troubled souls, finding the kindredship that only helpless children can feel. He sharpened his growing wit to a point and thought himself mighty because of it. He knew the truth, as did those he kept close. He was weak and hurting. But he still had the forests that were more a home to his soul than any building ever could be.

Then came the day of loss. He left his forests, and was never the same. Gone were the fellow sufferers. Gone were his rocks and trees and rasberry bushes. Gone was everything he knew. He tried to find his kind again in the new world he faced, but there were none. He drew within, cutting off the world that was not his. One day, the boy found another wanderer. Together they built vistas and adventures undreamed. But then came the day when the boy who was to be a wanderer left.

To a new world he went, but it was similar to the oldest one. Here were his forests again. But also here was the oldest pains, the loneliness and the manipulation. He sought to find who he was, and came up short. Surrounded by the bitter and disillusioned, he became that because it was easy. He thought he had nothing left. He was wrong.

One night in summer, this boy lost his innocence, ignorance, and pride in one fell swoop. What was to be a great moment, a beginning of a grand adventure for someone whose soul still sung of great adventures, turned into a sham. A mockery. With nothing left, the wanderer said goodbye to the light and accepted the darkness that had grown within him.

He wandered in the darkness, seeking anyone or anything, just for the sake of anyone or anything. Nothing really mattered, but he was lost. He knew now that home was somewhere else, and he didn't have it. Then one day, he saw a bonfire in the distance. He saw that there were two whom made the bonfire but couldn't dance around it, because they were not together. The soul of a boy who was to be a wanderer returned. He saw the ones who knew suffering. He swore to help them. He was led astray though, by a will o' wisp which left him sinking in the bog of his despair. But sinking, he saw the way to the fire. So he brought them there. And they danced. And he watched. For the first time in what felt like eons, the boy who was to be a wanderer felt happy.

It did not last, though. Such is the way of things. They ones who knew suffering taught the boy to dance, but moved the fire, without telling him where. They left him lost again in the darkness. But the boy who knew how to dance and would one day be a wanderer did not reenter the bog of his despair. He found a path and walked it.

On the way, he found fellow wanderers and old friends. He found a kindred soul, a sister in more ways than a lover. But they parted once the illusion of a romance left, and the boy who was to be a wanderer followed his path.

One day, the boy who was now a wanderer took a path, a sudden little sideroute for no other reason then he wanted to. He exitted the thicket to see the first rays of the dawn on the horizon. Enspelled he followed the first one stretching and could not believe his eyes.

Near him, there kneeled an angel of the purest light who was crying. The wanderer who was no more a boy went to her and held her. And by the light of the dawn, their souls mingled, and the wanderer remembered why he had walked all this way. He had come to find the angel.

I had wandered because I was looking for you.
I love you, Carrie Ann Barr.
I always will.
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